I’m not really sure what to write, I not really sure what I want to say………….. in fact I’m not really sure of much at the moment 
It’s been a rough couple of weeks in the MumtoJ house, in fact it’s been a rough couple of months. Right now I’m not sure I can explain it all, I’ve got so many thoughts and words racing through my head at the moment I just needed to write something down…………. anything! ‘Cus my brain may explode if I don’t write something down.
We seem to have had one knock after another and to be honest it’s getting harder to hold it all together at the moment. I’m finding it hard to understand why we’ve had to deal with so much crap, (sorry but couldn’t think of another word to use), and what we’ve done to deserve so much crap, (sorry again). We keep fighting but there’s only the 3 of us against the world, hardly a fair fight is it? I often sit and chat to my Nan, crazy right? I mean she’s been dead for almost 7 years, but she listens and I don’t know who else I can talk to. If she were still here I know she would have understood. I don’t talk about my faith and my beliefs very often but to be honest I’m not sure what they are anymore either.
I’ve always found writing theraputic and with everything that I’ve got going through my head at the moment I just needed to write something down. I know this is abit of a rambling post and to be quite honest I’m not sure I care whether you’ve made it to the end of this post, maybe you decided to give it a miss after the first line…………. If you made it to the end, thanks for sticking with it and sorry for rambling.
Time to put the smile on and hope everything really does happen for a reason …………….. a good reason!
Hello lovely, I read to the end my friend, it’s totally fine to just write, most of my posts are just me trying to find a way to understand how I’m feeling.
Jo…you are not crazy, I often chat with my Mom and my Nan. I even write them letters when I can’t get my mouth to form words. It helps they were my safe place.
Also…. {{{BIG HUGS}}} and LOADS of Love coming your way.
Love you my friend. Lees. xxx
Thanks Lees my lovely friend xxx Just had to get something written down, my head’s trying to work it’s way through everything, just didn’t know what else to do
Love you loads my friend xxxxx
I love you!!! Things are tough, take each day as it comes and remember I’m here xxxxx
I know you’re there and you have no idea how much that means to me…….. to us. Love you loads too xxxx
I love you! I’m here for you, I know I can’t make it all better but I’ll do everything I can xxxx
xx Love you loads too
I also read to the end, I’m sorry to hear that things are still not going well for you. I can’t imagine how it must feel to have given up a life you were loving to come back to somewhere you had already tried to get away from.
I always say that everything happens for a reason but honestly, I’ve had to wonder myself sometimes if that’s just a crap (sorry) saying for when things go wrong.
I hope things start looking up for you soon xx
Coming back to the UK was just the start of things
Sometimes bad stuff happens to good people.That saying is never more true than for you and your little family Jo.I always wish I could do more to help
Just remember that it is always ok to ask for help, it is always ok to admit you are struggling. I really,really hope that there are people close to you who are there for you all. Hugs to you Jo {{{Jo}}} xx
Hi Dearna, I have one of the best friends ever here and she probably doesn’t realize just how much she’s done to help me/us get through the past few weeks just by being there. I find it hard to ask for help, but it’s just gotten too much over the past couple of weeks
xxxxx
Sorry, Jo. Thinking of you. What can we do to help you? x
Hi Di, right now not sure much can help
but thanks for your thoughts xx